Together Forever

Your love overtakes
it feels like heaven

All of my days
your name will be praised

You are my secret place
my safe place

To lean in your chest
Oh this experience

The love in my veins
I cannot contain

Nothing can separate
We’re together forever

From faith to faith
Always growing stronger

In my weakness
You are my help

How could I forget?
When you saved the day

What can I say?
I am speechless

For your love overtakes
it feels like heaven

All of my days
your name will be praised

You are my secret place
my safe place

To lean in your chest
Oh this experience

The love in my veins
I cannot contain

Nothing can separate
We’re together forever

~M. Salonga

Anchored

I have been tossed by the waves of emotions to and fro
I was lost in the sea of confusions and the unknown
In the life of fear, I have made horrible decisions
The tears that was shed, grieved for the sake of my own soul

Hear my mourning for I need a champion out of Sodom
Blinded by my own depression hoping for tomorrow
I offer this empty life for im nothing and alone
Going back to the source of salvation and redemption

In my anguish and cries, the heavens responded a roar
the champion of heavens rescued me out in the lowest point
From resuscitation to redemption, one, two, three, four
A new heart started beating, A new heart has been bestowed

As I get up on my feet, I did blow the loudest horn
I could see it coming down, my own walls of Jericho
All I could see, unending opportunities and hope
To my champion, I will remain and strongly anchored

For my champion listened and responded with action
For he loved me in my darkest and lowest and gave his all
For he swam down the confusions and showed his favour
To my champion, I will remain and strongly anchored

 

~ M. Salonga

#NeverLettingGoNoMatterWhat

When we finally walk away

Inhale Exhale, Inhale Exhale
Look at him one last time
begging a glimpse of his face
but my mind stood the ground

letting go and walking away
reminding myself never again
from all the pain I‘ve felt
craving to find my soul again

For chances were given
Convincing myself to stay
trying to fix whats already broken
taken for granted once again

The power of courage took over
has made me stronger than ever
Saving myself from heartbreak
To finally give my heart a break

~M. Salonga

Life is an Ongoing Recovery

Wanting our hearts to heal
To live a life of milk and honey
But this life’s full of shit
A place where rest is a sin

Life’s an ongoing recovery
Face all kinds of pain everyday
To cry, pray, and think
laying down in the bed broken

Shouting to the heavens
with so much trust and faith
To let the winter end
and may summer rise again

Time will tell us when
the pain would go far away
A notebook and pen
A companion to depend for days

To be angry or to be happy
feelings in a roller coaster ride
This is truly damaging
for our little fragile minds

Wanting our hearts to heal
To live a life of milk and honey
But this life’s full of shit
A place where rest is a sin

Life’s an ongoing recovery
Face all kinds of pain everyday
To cry, pray, and think
laying down in the bed broken

Shouting to the heavens
with so much trust and faith
To let the winter end
and may summer rise again

~M. Salonga

Loving someone broken

We fall in love with vulnerability
Not aware that it can painfully kill
We see the good but afraid to see it all
so when we jump we lost it all

Loving someone broken is truly a challenge
for we never know what might happen
ending up both confused and depressed
Not knowing leads to both wreckage

Many issues are tackled and confronted
Solving problems by flowers
Many issues came back over and over again
Discovering flowers aren’t the answer

A shattered glass wounds the fixer
accidentally cutting himself
Loving someone broken
Loving by carrying the burdens

We all fall in love with vulnerability
Not aware it can painfully kill
We know how this story ends
both lead to their death

~M. Salonga

Memorable Hong Kong

You were so memorable Hong Kong
You somehow help me moved on
to the things I can’t let go of
I have traveled to many attractions

I thank, how it somehow moved the pain away
when I booked the tickets right away
with my family who would love me in any way
and who would be there for me anywhere

You were so memorable Hong Kong
I get to see lots & enjoyed the most
I would cherish this amazing joy
even when I am already at home

#DiscoverHongKong

I fell in love with Melbourne

I fell in love with its beautiful streets
and happy with the company I keep
If it weren’t for these peeps
I would face the journey feeling lonely
with such big fears
So for this peeps I love, Cheers 🍻
We did some drinkin
We did some big shoppin
We did some roadtrippin
We did some food explorin
We did some sight seeings
Oh Melbourne, you weren’t in my list
But I can say you’d be truly miss
Took some pics and bought some gifts
You’ll forever stay in my memory ❤️

I Need You Still

On the run feeling numb

For I am losing the sun

Slowly losing my breath

Just trying to do my best

My eyes filled with tears

Self-pity and overthinking

All these demons in my head

Here I am, frightened

Know that I need you still

I try to keep myself still

I hope you remember

the love we spent and dreamt

We used to live for tomorrow

Chasing after our own rainbow

Now we’re just strangers

In a place called nowhere

You have always seen me

You have always loved me

Know that I need you still

I try to keep myself still

Monsters are now my companion

No ones going to catch when I fall

I only see a beautiful dead end

If I live, the only fool is myself

For every memory crushes me

I can only hear broken symphonies

My beating heart hurts like hell

I’m just pining for death, my friend

~ M. Salonga

Write My Cries

I cried one at night

I cried waking up

Praying loud to God

To help me stand up

or just end my life

All i see is black

For there is no love

I could think of mom

my last straw to life

but were miles apart

Alone in the dark

with my thoughts & mind

so i write it up

my way to survive

I am a Christian

might be in the light

but my sight is blind

or mind filled with clouds

Keep moving forward

says my little heart

Just please write it up

a way to survive

says my little heart

~ Marianne Salonga

Words Unspoken

Have you ever wanted to speak your mind?

but you ended up staring in the sky

and lose oneself because words are not found

I could totally understand and relate in some ways

there must be some reason God erased the thoughts in our head

Im hoping God also erased the feelings of depressed

If I look closely and act as a judge

The person who is at fault is just me

The person who is truly blind is me

Every night I fell asleep at 3am

I just try to write my feelings on my bed

black, white, smileys, chocolate, doodles, scribbles

It is a never ending cycle everyday

breakfast, lunch, dinner and it would still be the same

So I just try to write my feelings on my bed

black, smileys, doodles, scribbles, and words unspoken

Rest forever, The End

Trying to reflect,
I looked at myself
I see struggle
I see pain
I just can’t help
but notice darkness
So I remain silent
I want to share
all my secrets
It is twisted
It is from hell
So i just accepted
that the attempt
to share
Won’t just happen
So I observe
So I wait
Pain’s bigger
Struggle’s harder
Im now in chains
I’ve fallen
into the deepest
part of well
I want help
What is sane?
What is the answer?
In my death
would I be replaced?
I guess
I just need rest
to rest forever
the end
I am now
seeing silhouette
and sunset
is this heaven?
Watching the end
of skies and water
I just want to stay
Experience a moment
where darkness
just faded
out of nowhere
Rest forever,
The end

~ M. Salonga

Sinking deep

I am sinking I may have lost my way
My tears have turned into a lake
I am just holding my own breath
I own a mind that tricks and plays
Wondering if when will the race end
I truly have nobody but myself
since people i love are oceans away
I have seen a lot of change
like the seasons, weather, and days
I have also seen things the same
like the red will stay red
Looking at it might seem nonsense
However there’s something in a way
that i could totally relate
My eyes are beginning to water again
lost in my existence I would say
If my love ones are present
they would just snatch me away
and they’ll make sure I’m safe
I might be just over my head
I find it difficult to explain
But I can only express myself
I said I’d make my life better I swear
But here I am all over again
I am sinking deep, I only blame myself
I have chosen my life to go this way
I thought I have found an escape
turned out to be a way for me to hell
I need somebody with saving grace
favour my life with indulgence
For I am sinking deep, I only blame myself

~ M. Salonga

Beautiful Dream

I just want to fast track everything
where everything is a beautiful dream
I want to see myself flying free
and stop myself from asking and thinking
when will misery stop chasing me?
what if I start singing, dancing, or painting?
would my life be better off with these
I would love to end the following years
that does not look good for me
fast tracking everything where hardships
would probably not be haunting me
Too bad I can only see it by imagining it
I guess I could be more positive and believe
I could probably foresee the possibilities
The problem is wanting it immediately
Welcome to the frustrations of being me
so much to expect and believe
To die is gain indeed but so is living free
Here I am again, contemplating and reflecting
but thats just how it is, so I say so be it
Just let life to keep on shaping me & moulding me
into something precious like the amethyst
I just simply want to reach and achieve
that desire I have in me: beautiful dream

~ M. Salonga